2k26 year's beginning
in the last 5 years or so i have grown out of (at least temporarily lmao) what a certain girlbloogger on tumblr dot com calls 'timegrief'. used to, in the months/weeks/days coming up to my bday and new years i'd honestly kinda Freak It. depression, mostly, but... the time is passing and i can do nothing about it!!! i'm EVEN OLDER! AUGHHHH!!!
i don't really feel that way anymore, though. as my lovely girlfriend loves to remind me, getting older is a privilege not everyone is afforded. i can't take it for granted, even if it's scary. i always thought i was going to kill myself at 30 as a teen, and here i am now, two years past that expiration date. it's still a little weird ngl.
but that's not the point of this post!
i want to talk about going forward into the year of luigi 2k26.
i have Resolutions for this upcoming year; who doesn't? including being Kinder to myself, so if i don't hit them all, it's not the end of the world.
read more!: my gift to myself this holiday season was a kobo libra color (plus case and stylus), because i've been YEARNING to read more, but the ereaders i already had (one eink kindle, thrifted, one tablet-esque kindle, inherited from bf's late grandpa) (also my phone, sometimes) weren't cutting it, primarily due to battery life. and it's WORKING! i've already read two more books, which is twice as many as i read the rest of the year lmao. at any rate, i don't want to set a specific read x books per year/month or whatever, just. More than i Have been.
make more of my time!: after some particularly egregious online shit, i decided i wanted to be offline more, and my friend erin suggested a book, Make Time: How To Focus On What Matters Every Day by Jake Knapp and John Zeratsky! with the help of my new kobo, i managed to get through the book, and while it's absolutely primarily aimed at White Collar folks (esp those with like, nuclear families lmao), i was able to take several things away from it! i've been able to just... Do More, and spend less time Scrolling. i uninstalled bsky from my phone and that's already helped a TON. here's hoping it carries into 2k26!
stabilize my meds!: this year, after several more of falling to inertia, i finally took steps to change up my psych med regimen, and it's already paying dividends! now, i've only taken 2 steps so far, and there are More to take, including the daunting task of potentially mixing up my adhd med, but... i needed a change. i already feel less tired all the time, and hopefully going off one certain med and onto another will help with that!
do things offline more!: as can be ascertained by one of my previous bullet points, i am a Very online person. i am generally content to just chill on my computer. i want to get off the computer and do more irl things, especially irl things that will benefit other people. i don't drive (yet) + my energy/work schedule are all over the place so i don't think volunteering Consistently is something that's in the cards for me unfortunately, but... i want to do SOMETHING. i'd love to do things for my work union, but the driving thing + time management... we will see tho. i Do have at least one concert (nine inch nails) scheduled for next year, maybe two if i can buy tix, but more is always good!
learn to drive?: this was one of my goals last year and it did Not happen, but perhaps this year? don't wanna work on this until spring tho LOL the weather's been ghastly this season.
that's all i can think of at the moment. maybe i'll think of more goals as the new year approaches and dawns, maybe not. this is already a good cache of goals, imo.
i can only hope that the new year will be kind to us all. ok goo be be